I’m sick! I have COVID! I picked it up last week when I went a few places I don’t usually visit and have been paying the price ever since. I’m generally not prone to sickness. But even though I’m very careful when I go out, COVID hooked on to me and doesn’t seem to want to let go.
From the outside, folks would probably say I had a very good past month. That’s at least what all of these folks in the unfamiliar places I visited kept telling me. Their eyes sparkled and they looked at me with big smiles on their faces. But I couldn’t relate to their upbeat manner.
I think it was David Olney who said, “When you’re sad, the world knows it immediately. You might as well have a girl walk behind you playing a tuba everywhere you go.” I am definitely sad — orphan sad — but I can’t get anyone else to go along with the program. I always thought that Olney knew what the heck he was talking about. Now I don’t even have that.
So maybe it’s a good thing that I’m sick. I can isolate here in my room and be as sad as I want. Maybe that’s why I got sick in the first place. The mind is a mysterious, powerful force. I just need some time to be sad. And that’s OK!
Hope y’all are taking the time to be what you need to be.