Formerly homeless vendor
I still have dreams but they are more narrow these days. By that I mean I tend to focus on myself and my more immediate needs. I don’t have too big of aspirations anymore. At one time I had dreams of raising a family, getting a house, work and retirement. I just always tried to do my best at whatever I was doing. After three bad marriages, I was reduced to my clothes, my tools, my truck and my songbook. (Sounds like a bad country song, huh!) Just when it couldn’t get worse — it did. I was laid off at Christmas when Bill Clinton and Newt Gingrich decided to shut down the government in 1994. That was over 20 years ago and I never recovered from it. It was the first time I had ever been homeless.
At that point in my life I was just trying to survive. It sure has been a whirlwind since then.
I lost my leg from gout in my big toe in 2011 due to an irreversible infection. I have had operations on both legs since and battled a bad bacteria in my gut since the amputation. By the grace of God, I am still alive.
After going through hell and back, I now have a roof over my head and food in my pantry. God is good. I’d rather be working, but God had other plans. Sometimes it’s not about me and what I want — that’s a real hard lesson to learn. I do know that you can’t turn back the clock and get a do-over! You just have to do the best you can with what you have at any given time.
I don’t look too far in the future anymore because I’ve learned valuable life lessons. Sometimes doing the next right thing is the best you can do.
I still like to think I can do great things in the future. I know you can’t live in the past. I know that there is no promise of tomorrow. We have to live in “The Present,” which is a miracle gift from God.
I did come to Nashville to do music. That was one of my dreams. I’ve held on to that dream and I hope one day to have a hit song. Other than that I just take things day by day. That’s really all anybody can do. That’s sometimes difficult enough.
A wise man once told me that when you’re young, you have big dreams about what you want to do and accomplish in life. Then he said, “When you get older you realize how much of that you won’t probably be able to get to do. So you have to do what is important and what makes you happy. Being happy is important.”
I still have dreams. When you quit dreaming and give up, life is over. I guess that’s why I’m alive is because I don’t give up easily. I still have dreams!
May 16 2018